My Sacred Vows To Myself
It’s my birthday today, and I am 54 years old! I am thinking to myself: This is my favorite birthday of my entire life! Because I truly love myself! I am at home in my body, mind, and spirit, and I am happy.
As I write this blog post, I think about the many judgments from others (some well-meaning) that I have let into my being in the past. I think about all the self-judgment/rejection that I have inflicted upon myself in the past. I also ponder questions that I have asked myself:
How could I possibly be happy when I am a size 18?
How could I feel abundance and security when income is not flowing in at the level I would like?
How can I be happy when my husband struggles with depression?
How can I be content and let go of perfectionism when my house is not clean, and my yard is not perfectly manicured?
Maybe these are even questions you have pondered when observing your own life or even my life?
It turns out that I had the answers inside of me all along. I needed to love myself!
Now that I love myself and am fully committed to myself, it’s not that these things don’t matter anymore, but they don’t impact my state of being. Because I love and accept myself, I am not looking to find that reassurance or acceptance from others. I am not blaming circumstances outside of myself, nor am I beating myself up.
It was a lot of hard work to get to this place in my life. Rocks were overturned, roots exposed, tears and protective layers shed. Now that I am there, I am in a place of daily celebration about being home. I am also celebrating every day that I have relationships in my life that will continue to assist and support me to expose more roots and keep doing this hard work. It is a never-ending cycle, and it’s part of being human! The work will never be complete.
As I am writing this, I remember that exactly one month ago, I was on a transformational journey with Freedom Folk and Soul among the pyramids in Teotihuacan, Mexico. One of the many powerful ceremonies we held in this place of great spirituality was a sacred marriage. In front of an exquisite painting of the divine mother, surrounded by the most beautiful altar of flowers and candles, while gazing into my eyes in a mirror and breathing in the exquisite, earthy scent of burning copal, I spoke the following vows in sacred marriage to myself:
- I will love myself as if I were my own child.
- I will consider my body sacred and nourish it with love, movement, and good food.
- I will surround myself with people who love, value, and respect me.
- I will give myself love, comfort, and grace when hard things happen, and I will ask for help.
- I will not let fear or voices from the past stand in the way of becoming the person I was meant to be.
- I will continue to allow my soul and the great mystery to guide me in painting the great masterpiece that is my life!
As I am now celebrating my 54th time around the sun and revisiting these vows, I have tears of joy streaming down my face because I am fully embodying these vows. The experience of holding a sacred ceremony and being witnessed and celebrated by others is now an integral part of me: my holy commitment to myself.
Tina Green loves herself and her body, and she is the Founder, Owner, and Life Coach at Exposing The Roots. Through her life coaching, she partners with women to assist them to increase their self-love and overcome body shame. Tina is a trained Life Coach, Chef, and Author. She also has 20 years of experience as an executive in non-profit and financial services. She wrote chapter 18, “Exposing the Roots of Body Shame — Carving a Path to Self-Love, Acceptance, and Freedom” in the newly-released, best-selling anthology “Shaman Heart — Turning Pain Into Passion and Purpose”.
Tina lives with her husband and two teenage daughters in Northern California, where she is a personal transformation enthusiast, foodie, outdoor adventurer, gardener, and cook.